Below are the 12 most recent journal entries recorded in fusel's LiveJournal:

Monday, June 13th, 2005
5:53 pm	Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..... PUTANGINA NYA!!! d ko n alam kun anu pa gagawin ko s kanya!!! sobra n cya! la nmn ako gngwa masama s kanya ah! problema nya....punong puno n ko...ggrrrrrrrr!!!! naiinis n tlga ko..inis n inis! haaay naku kung makikita nyu lng hinahighblood n ako..BUWESIT tlga!!!! sinisira nya araw ko..nakakainissssss........makakaganti din ako s kanya humanda cyang hayup cya! kanya ba ang shop? letse tlga cya..kung d lng ksalanan ang pumatay gnwa ko na..papagcchan ko n nagtx p ko s kanya... kainin n cya ng lupa...may araw din cya! Current Mood: angry Current Music: letse! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 7th, 2005
3:12 pm	touch ako!!! Have you ever wondered which hurts the most? Saying something and wishing you hadn't? or- Saying nothing and wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs. Have u ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own.... when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to. Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all. Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger. Life is all about risks and it re quires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had. *What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say  good-bye? *What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there? *What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt?   (even if it is that you don't care anymore) *What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them? *What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them? People live, but people die. And I want to tell you that you are a friend. If you died tomorrow (God Forbid), you would be in my heart. Would I be in yours? If you care about me as much as I care about you, you will send this back. We might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year, don't talk that often the next, and don't want to talk at all the year after that. So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life, I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you. Current Mood: calm (Comment on this)
2:36 pm	wehowehoweho.... wehowehoweho...heto n nmn ako.... mrami dapat gawin d ko lam kun panu... wehowehoweho...heto n nmn ako... umaasa n iibigin din ako...nino? wehowehoweho...heto n nmn ako... walang mgawa s buhay ko... wehowehoweho...heto n nmn ako.. gumagawa ng linya khit papanu.. wehowehoweho...heto n nmn ako.. nsa computer shop s kanto.. iniintay magonline mga kaibigan ko.. bka sakaling maaaliw ang nalulumbay n puso... wehowehoweho...pagod n ako.. nakakabaliw ang ganito....tinutoyo n nmn ako...   Current Mood: hyper Current Music: wehowehoweho (Comment on this)
Friday, June 3rd, 2005
3:58 pm	okei okei na.... mdyo okei okei na pakiramdam ko....ubo n lng n nakakahiya ang natitira...anywei my life now is so boring nagiintay n lng ulet me ng training ...huhuhu namimiz ko n c frinz louis..everytime i look at his picture waaaaaaaa!!!!! gus2 ko cya puntahan pero natatauhan me pag naiisip kong its not the ryt tym...kelan kya un???? i miz him a lot...luv u baby..luv u baby...mwah....mwah...mwah...mwah....mwah... Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 31st, 2005
6:36 pm	i hate being sick!!!!! huhuhu....bkit nmn kung kelan pa mrmi akong dapat gwin saka ko nagkaskit!!!! pero ngayon ko lng napatunayan na khit bago p lng ung mga frends n lagi ko ksma ngaun i'll prove n they are treasured ones...i'll never 4-get the night of may 28,2005 saturday...tumaas ang lagnat ko to the point n namanhid ang katawan ko... cla ang nagdala sken s hospital..nagaasikaso gumawa ng way makabili lng ng gamot...they never leave me...palitan cla s pagbabantay...grabe sbihin pang puro cla lalaki kung ganun nmn attitude nla....how blessed i am...d b? sna wag cla kunin sken ni lord..iiyak n tlga ko..higit pa s pagiyak ng umalis ako s dati kong apartment...anywei..i'm hoping n gumaling n kong tuluyan...pra nmn makapagwork n ko... Current Mood: sick (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 26th, 2005
8:51 pm	hanggang s huling sandali.... hanggang sa huling sandali....aking minamasdan...bawat sulok ng pinakamamahal kung munting tahanan.... hanggang sa huling sandali...aking binabalikan..masasayang alaala at malulungkot n eksena...mga halakhak..mga luha ng saya... hanggang sa huling sandali... aking iniisip..mga nabuong pagibig... mga gumuhong pangarap at mga paghihirap... hanggang sa huling sandali aking naririnig mga tagayan ng alak...mga numero ng barahang sinisigaw..ang radyong walang pagod sa pagtunog... haayy!!! buhay... ganito tlga d maiiwasan ang mga pagbabago habang tumatanda problema lumalala...pero ok lang yun basta maging msaya tayo.... Current Mood: sad Current Music: paalam na...aking mahal... (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 25th, 2005
7:40 pm	WALA LANG!!!! hmmmmmm.....c joan kz ktabi ko ngaun...kya green tx ng tx la nmn load.san kya kmi pupulutin???? s  kalsada? sa bhay ampunan?..sa DSWD? sa bantaybata este matanda..or habang buhay n lng n palaboy...huhuhu letranista pa nmn kmi...la n kming tirahan...mag-aply kya kming ka2long pra libre bahay o kya nmn mag GRO pra stay in...ang saklap nmn ng buhay nmin plagi n ngang bigo s pag-ibig..eto't palagirls pa rin... bkit kya kmi nabuhay sa mundo ng walang nagmamahal???? bkit kya tigas ng ulo nmin...lagpas hanggang langit ang katangahan nmn pero take note..khit anu sbihin ng mga wapakels n tao dyan magaganda p rim kmi..yan lang ang 22ong alm namin...hehehehe pumayag n kau dhil yan lng ang yaman namin...dyan kmi napapansin?? kya mga boys d nmin kawalan ang pagiwan nyo samin...hahahaha darating ang araw luluhod kau at magmamakaawa din...adios!!!! mga tsong....ingat kau samin...d nyu lam bka kmi ang inyong mamahalin......babushhhh...WALA LANG MAGAWA!!! Current Mood: bitchy (Comment on this)
3:01 pm	PAALAM NA!!! gs2 ko ng maiyak...umiyak at wag ng tumahan...parang ayaw kong dumating ang araw ng biyernes...ng dahil s munting tahanan d ko mapigil ang maging malungkot..ang isipin n khit sandaling panahon napamhal sken ang munting tahanang yun..dun ako nagbuo ng pangarap n gs2 kong matupad ksma ang mga kaibigan n sanay d rin mawala kagaya ng tahanang aking tinutukoy...mraming magagandang alaala yun..naging mhirap man ang buhay dun itinuring kung parte lng ng pagsubok yun at malalagpasan ko...pagdating ng araw ng biyernes..sabado panibagong buhay n nmn haharapin ko... d ko lam kung kakayanin ko pero g2win ko lhat magtagumpay lang...sa mga oras n ganito mrami kong naaalala..namimiz... ang mga dati kong kaibigan,kapatid , magulang, c lola, c mahal..at c frinzlouis ang pinkamamahal ko s lhat...mhirap ang malayo s mga mahal mo...pero kelangan labanan ang lungkot na to...para din to s knila... sana'y dumating n ang arw n magkakasama kaming muli...pagdating ng araw n un d ko n hahayaan pang mwala khit isa s kanila...mahal n mahal ko sila yan ang d nila alam....napapagod man ako..isipin ko lng cla ok na ko..ngingiti muli at magbubuo ng lakas para labanan ang lungkot at pangungulila...mrming tao ang nagmamahal raw sken pero sana nga totoo dhil may mga pagmamahal akong hinahanap...pagmamahal mula sa mga taong laging laman ng aking isipan..d naaalis khit sandali man lng... sana'y khit minsan sumagi s isip nila n mahal ko cla... mahal n mahal...kung alam lng nila lahat ng nararamdaman ko..d cguro nila ko sasaktan at huhusgahan ng ganito....basta ang alm ko cla ang buhay ko...sila lng mga mahal ko....   Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
Monday, May 23rd, 2005
5:55 pm	NABABALIW N KOOH!!!! grabeeeeee!!!! I CAN'T IMAGINE....haaayy naku... ano b tlga nanyayari sken...baliw b ako...or tlga lng tanga!!!! whew!!! a lot of unexpected things happened to me recently...and take note b-day n bukas ng taong pinakamamahal ko... soooobrraaa!!! miz ko n cya .....ayoko ng dumating ang bukas dahil maaalala ko lng ung last year..sobrang lungkot pero msaya ko kz ksma ko cya ng b-day nya...ngayon???????????? d ko lm kun ano gagawin ko..do i hav to find him b or not... i don't know mababaliw n ko... nkita ko n ang mga taong involve s past ko...but i can't do something to have the strenght to face him...why????????????? ewan ko dahil yoko umiyak s hrap nya...ayoko cguro ulet msaktan pag nkita ko cya... d ko lam ang ssbihin ko..tsongg!!!! bka magmukha kong tanga!!! kawawawaa....huhuhu napakasaklap kung ganun ang manyyayari akin...anywei....ung lovelife ko nga pla s huling post ko wla ganun pa din...NO EFFORT ang mokong...d ko lm s knya..bhala cya... den i rili mizzz the two important men for me in diz hell world... frinzlouis and his dad!!!! huhuhu mabubuo p b kmi...sna dhil i want to luive happily ever after!!!!! END! Current Mood: confused (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 19th, 2005
6:18 pm	i think im fallen!!!! fullhouse... huhuhu....nagkasprain ako...pero may mas huhuhu pa dun,,, yoko na gumamit ng 3310...lagi n lang me wrongsend....Waaaaaa!!!!! buti n lng maunawain ung mga katx ko...anywei good news namn i've got my new job...nd take note mdyo mahirap cya..training pa lng patayan na sa pagasasaulo...kaw na puro gamot pag-aralam.....droga nga nmn nakaktuyo tlga ng utak...pero mas nak2tuyo ng utak ang mainlove s taong d mo alam kung may gs2 rin sau...minsan mafifil mo n parang crush k din nya..minsan parang hindi....haaaayyy!!! anu b tlga!!!!! one tym we had this moment..un bang kmi lang... and lam ko lasing n ako...nd guess wat he tried to do...he kiiiiiiiissssssss meeeehh!!!!! waaaaa...i dont know if he only taking advantage or he just want to say he likes me.....anywei watever....bsta!!!!!! then...to be continue!!!! Current Mood: naughty (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 14th, 2005
2:19 pm	tanga tlga akooh!!! Para Kang Tanga Ka!!!! umuwi ako isang gabi, lumuluha... sa kaibigan walang msabi sa kasintahan ako'y nakipaghiwalay na.. Para kang tanga ka!!! cge... iyak pa! lumipas ilang araw , sarili'y nilunod sa uhaw alak sa gabi, tanghali at agahan Parang tanga ka!!! lasing ka na nman! Lumipas ilang buwan, ako'y parang natauhan.. Sarili'y muling pinagbigyan.. Para kang tanga ka!!! Inlove k n nman.. Akala ko'y walang katapusan pagmamahalang walang hanggan hahamakin ang lahat masunod k lng ngunit heto't umiiyak, iniwan n nmn Para kong tanga ko!!! lagi n lang gento... Talaga yatang ganyan... Aking kapalaran ay laging masaktan karamay ang kaibigan may hawak n yosi at tagayan Nagsasabing: "Para kang tanga ka!!! iinom mo n lng yan!"   Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
2:17 pm	TANGINA DITOOOOO!!!!! 1 Current Mood: crappy (Comment on this)